Are you a mental Mum or a Mum that’s mental?

I am most definitely a Mental Mother - I suffer with Anxiety and depression. I began to notice that it was becoming more apparent after my daughter was born. I was 20 at the time and feeling massively overwhelmed. I didn't tell anyone that I was suffering because I thought it would affect the way people saw me as a mother. I started university a few months after she was born, because as if being a full time mum wasnt enough - sucker for punishment! Plus I felt that people would look down at me if I didnt do anything with my life. I graduated and felt like a little weight had been lifted, short lived! Being a single mum, working full time makes me feel like a bad mum. Not having the time to do the things all the 'clicky school mums' have time to do, whether its making the best costumes or the best musical instruments - dressed in school uniform and matching socks is a win for me! That coupled with work pressures finally pushed me to breaking point. I finally went to the GP and I have started taking Fluxotine. I know this wont fix things, bit its a start right?

What do you do when you feel overwhelmed? Meditate? Talk? Hide?

When I feel overwhelmed I hide, I dont like to admit that its a problem! I also get very snappy - I cant help it. I also tend to push people away. I guess I have always dealt with it on my own so I find it hard to let people in. 

Do you discuss your mental health with your mum mates?

I have mentioned it once or twice, I guess they didnt really know what to say. I mean, they said the usual 'it'll get better' and 'ahh you'll be alright soon'. Needless to say I havent brought up the subject since.

How do you tackle mental health chats with your kid’s?

Mental health chats with my daughter - Can honestly say I have never spoken to her directly about it. If I'm having a 'bad day' I will just say to her that im not feeling 100% okay, and she seems to accept that. She worries about things and I feel like she doesnt need to worry about me, its my job to worry about her.

Who helps you in the dark? (In your pits, your mental rock bottom - who is your hero?)

Who's my hero - I guess I don't specifically have a hero. I've always had the mentality that I cant tell anyone that there's anything wrong. I have over the last few months searched the internet for websites and blogs. They seem to help, makes me feel like im not the first and I wont be the last. 

What helps you in the light? (Meditation? Procrastination? Perspiration? People?)

What helps me in the light - I like to jog! I absolutely despised it to start off with, but being outdoors in the wild. With the fresh air, kinda takes me to a happy place. 

Is it hard to talk about your mental health? (Doesn't mean on Instagram necessarily, but do you feel the stigma is lifting and do you feel safe to speak your mind, even if it is possibly 'mental'?)

I think that the stigma of mental health is being lifted - however there is still a long way to go. Myself I feel more at ease talking about it - but to a total stranger. I haven't got the confidence to talk to close ones about my mental health. 

Where’s your head at? (Right here in this moment, today)

My head right now - honestly, I have no idea! This morning I felt was a good day for me - everything running smoothly. Then the school pick up comes along - yearly easter bonnet parade and clicky mums have out done themselves again. Yes, she had a bonnet but it was no where near the standard of others! Who makes these rules up? Why does there need to be a click in the yard? And why the hell are other mums looking down thier noses at other mums? 

Soft Play or Rehab?

Soft play - coffee on tap.

Jacobs Creek or a Jacobs Cracker? 

Jacobs creek - odd crush on that fella!

Nut Job or Nut Allergy?

Nut job.

Self Care or Self Sabotage?

Self sabotage - its a habit now, a bad one i need to change. 

Journal or jog?


Ask for help or happy to hermit?

Happy to hermit - but changing my ways!


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