All in Mental Mutha Health

HOW DOES YOUR KID FEEL ABOUT FAILURE?

I am a coach and mentor for teenagers.  I use my many years’ of teaching experience and my social media management skills to help teenagers build a positive mindset to navigate through the worlds of education, social media and the internet.  My goal is to help teenagers own their future by overcoming the challenges they face today and being ready for the ones they face tomorrow.   

SURVIVING WITHOUT BOOZE

Basically, I don't remember a time when I wasn't keeping some kind of feeling or thought hidden away, or conditioning myself to hide my feelings and put on my game face. I used to blame my love of alcohol on the lack of stable, responsible and healthy father figures, and the normalization of booze and drugs from an early age. And sometimes I would even let myself believe that I was somehow predestined to be an alcoholic because that's just “what we did”.

MY OLD FLAME

For me, anxiety started as that feeling of rocking on your chair a little too hard and tipping over the point of balance. If you manage to catch yourself before it’s too late the relief is almost euphoric, if you don’t, you end up in a heap on the floor, aching.

BACK TO SCHOOL BLUES

I was starting to get scared, scared of my inability to have fun with my kid anymore. How was I supposed to fill his day? I am not a Butlins red coat! I'm depressed. I can 'extrovert' when I need to, but 6 weeks is a long time for me to wear the mask without a slip.

LIVING WITH LIFE AND LOVE AFTER LOSS

Life after loss, pregnancy after loss, love after loss… I still struggle with these daily but I also conquer them too. I still have panic attacks, I still struggle without my Heaven Husband and My Heaven Son, I still carry that hurt and pain in my heart, so heavy, but I also live my life to the fullest for them.

POST PARTUM PSYCHOSIS

I blanked out that I had just given birth and this was my third child. In my mind I had two children and this baby was a doll that I had been given as an experiment. I thought that our road had been cordoned off by police because I was a massive risk. I was in denial.

EVERYTHING IS AMPLIFIED IN MOTHERHOOD

I have always just about managed my mental health, teetering on the edge but never becoming seriously unwell.
Low self-esteem, self doubt, social anxiety, regular worrying and occasional sadness has always affected my life and career, but no way as badly as it does for anyone else. This is what I would say to myself to avoid addressing it anyway.